May 31, 2009

What I've learned Lately.

1. Things are just things.
My sister was here for a mere 48 hours. In that time I helped her unpack, cried, laughed, stressed, and cared for her.

2. Love isn't always enough.
That wasn't enough to keep her here.

3. Children know things, somehow they see things we can't.
The entire time my sister was here, my daughter ran around the house crying that my sister would leave. Refusing to even nap in fear that her aunt would not be here when she awoke.

4. While all ages that our children go through are scary, having a child turn into themselves when trying to cope is more painful than your own pain. My own shock, pain, anger, sadness and other feelings I can't even put a word to, over my sister leaving my home without telling me, is nothing compared to the anguish I feel that my daughter's tears are gone now, and I don't know what that means.

5. Having a hot temper in a child can be a good thing. My daughter is quick to anger but also quick to forgive. I now know that it's good for her to express herself in these ways. Her anger is a visible sign that I can see, feel, and relate to. Inward feelings that lack expression are much harder to do anything about.

3 comments:

Serena said...

Hang in there!

Shelly said...

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

I don't consider myself to be a religous person but this has gotten me thru some really rough times. I hope it can help you too.

Heather said...

My prayers are with your family, especially Erica. I hope that Jessica can adjust to her not being there. I'm so sad about the whole thing!